New York to California to Indiana to New Jersey.
Monday, April 15, 2013
Friday, April 12, 2013
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Friends are the Angel's on Earth
So, last time I was home I had some good heart to hearts with my best friends. I've opened up to them in ways that I've never done before. And the response of their love has been so overwhelming that I feel that I am the luckiest girl in the world.
Danielle made me "radiation" tarts for my acceptance
Anthony bought me a Camera Lens Coffee Mug
Denise sent me my favorite book, Oh the Places You'll Go, by Dr. Seuss
And not even the gifts that is amazing, it's the fact that these people: Danielle, Denise, Anthony, Heather, Timmy, Dave have all been my friends since before the internet become huge. And their love for me and my love for them is eternal.
I am so blessed. I love you all
Danielle made me "radiation" tarts for my acceptance
Anthony bought me a Camera Lens Coffee Mug
Denise sent me my favorite book, Oh the Places You'll Go, by Dr. Seuss
And not even the gifts that is amazing, it's the fact that these people: Danielle, Denise, Anthony, Heather, Timmy, Dave have all been my friends since before the internet become huge. And their love for me and my love for them is eternal.
I am so blessed. I love you all
My new ode to Fort Wayne
Foot, meet Mouth.
Sometimes, words just fly out of my mouth. I really wish I was more calculated. Or is it that I am just not at ease?
Sometimes I think my humor comes off as snobbish. I don't hate living here. But it's hard to be positive. Maybe I should say that? Instead of trying to make fun of my surroundings. It's my coping mechanism.
I don't think it's hard to be positive, I think I just choice to live negatively. Like I said earlier, find solace in the sorrow.
Sure, it's a little out dated and there's not much to do. Except, there is a lot to do. Soccer fields, baseball fields, Baseball park, lots of places to eat, the library...I think having expectations sucks. Living on both coasts and knowing what's out there, it's difficult to adjust to Fort Wayne.
But, I've done the best in school that I've ever done. I've learn how to 'slow' down my pace and adjust to new surroundings. Our rent is super cheap and we get to travel pretty much all the time. It's easy living here! So why am I making it difficult? We both have jobs. I got into a great program. Joe's family is a hop skip and jump away. I can get to my family in a day. Chicago is our neighbor. The most beautiful place in Michigan is 5 hours away and heck if girlfriends wanted to go to Nashville, I'll see them in 6-7 hours!
So you see, I'm changing my tune.
Going to experience the good ol' MidWest for what it is and so far, I've been surprised by the many great qualities its had.
Sometimes, words just fly out of my mouth. I really wish I was more calculated. Or is it that I am just not at ease?
Sometimes I think my humor comes off as snobbish. I don't hate living here. But it's hard to be positive. Maybe I should say that? Instead of trying to make fun of my surroundings. It's my coping mechanism.
I don't think it's hard to be positive, I think I just choice to live negatively. Like I said earlier, find solace in the sorrow.
Sure, it's a little out dated and there's not much to do. Except, there is a lot to do. Soccer fields, baseball fields, Baseball park, lots of places to eat, the library...I think having expectations sucks. Living on both coasts and knowing what's out there, it's difficult to adjust to Fort Wayne.
But, I've done the best in school that I've ever done. I've learn how to 'slow' down my pace and adjust to new surroundings. Our rent is super cheap and we get to travel pretty much all the time. It's easy living here! So why am I making it difficult? We both have jobs. I got into a great program. Joe's family is a hop skip and jump away. I can get to my family in a day. Chicago is our neighbor. The most beautiful place in Michigan is 5 hours away and heck if girlfriends wanted to go to Nashville, I'll see them in 6-7 hours!
So you see, I'm changing my tune.
Going to experience the good ol' MidWest for what it is and so far, I've been surprised by the many great qualities its had.
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Life
Hello there,
The winter is finally over and spring is among us. The clouds of depression have disappeared and I feel uplifted and creative, a long awaited period. It hasn't been the easiest time here in Fort Wayne. My best friends are far away, my family is spread amongst Indiana and New York and I am soon to be leaving my husband to embark on a very cruical time in our lives. It's been challenging, and will continue to be challenging. However, a good friend of mine instructed me that now is the time to create the environment you want from sorrow. Too often are we trapped in our routine of sadness to strengthen our minds and fix our mood. I have the tendency to not seek the help I want or express the pain I feel and listen to the advice I am given. Aren't we all? We want to vent but not take the tips given to change. It's a horrible cycle. Anxiety attacks, obscure thoughts and paranoid feelings can allow you to doubt your confidence and ability to be happy.
I stopped thinking of tomorrow or yesterday and have been trying to think of the now. Think of the Now. So hard, yet so important.
School is finally coming to an end and it's been a sluggish couple of months. It's been more of going through the motions then absorbing the material. Robot like.
I think it is a self preservation for this coming May. The program will be intense, a lot of pressure and a constant watch of doing the right thing. Not only is this a new field but it's a new frame of mind. I've always been the behind the scenes. Now, I am up front and center. How will the play turn out? Every day will be an effort. Truthfully, I enjoy the laziness.
Yet, that word cannot exist in my vocab in a month.
My last week of work is this week. I've scheduled myself for 5 days in a row on top of physics homework, physiology exam and fitness exam.
I go from 0 to 60 in 2.3 seconds.
Balance. Have we met?
I plan on joining a yoga studio when I move to Indianapolis next month. It is something that I must do for my sanity.
I don't have a 'crew' here. I am simply a floater. Sometimes that is nice, but sometimes you want to feel the concrete on your toes.
I plan on staying creative and dusting off my camera and getting behind the lens again. Where did that curious Cori disappear too? Is it winter blues? Adjustment periods?
One year has been since we moved. Now I will move again, but only during the week. A gyspy. who likes structure and stability but loathes planning.
Is there such thing?
Writing helps, so does exercise and photography. Make sure I keep up with it.
Til then,
Cori
The winter is finally over and spring is among us. The clouds of depression have disappeared and I feel uplifted and creative, a long awaited period. It hasn't been the easiest time here in Fort Wayne. My best friends are far away, my family is spread amongst Indiana and New York and I am soon to be leaving my husband to embark on a very cruical time in our lives. It's been challenging, and will continue to be challenging. However, a good friend of mine instructed me that now is the time to create the environment you want from sorrow. Too often are we trapped in our routine of sadness to strengthen our minds and fix our mood. I have the tendency to not seek the help I want or express the pain I feel and listen to the advice I am given. Aren't we all? We want to vent but not take the tips given to change. It's a horrible cycle. Anxiety attacks, obscure thoughts and paranoid feelings can allow you to doubt your confidence and ability to be happy.
I stopped thinking of tomorrow or yesterday and have been trying to think of the now. Think of the Now. So hard, yet so important.
School is finally coming to an end and it's been a sluggish couple of months. It's been more of going through the motions then absorbing the material. Robot like.
I think it is a self preservation for this coming May. The program will be intense, a lot of pressure and a constant watch of doing the right thing. Not only is this a new field but it's a new frame of mind. I've always been the behind the scenes. Now, I am up front and center. How will the play turn out? Every day will be an effort. Truthfully, I enjoy the laziness.
Yet, that word cannot exist in my vocab in a month.
My last week of work is this week. I've scheduled myself for 5 days in a row on top of physics homework, physiology exam and fitness exam.
I go from 0 to 60 in 2.3 seconds.
Balance. Have we met?
I plan on joining a yoga studio when I move to Indianapolis next month. It is something that I must do for my sanity.
I don't have a 'crew' here. I am simply a floater. Sometimes that is nice, but sometimes you want to feel the concrete on your toes.
I plan on staying creative and dusting off my camera and getting behind the lens again. Where did that curious Cori disappear too? Is it winter blues? Adjustment periods?
One year has been since we moved. Now I will move again, but only during the week. A gyspy. who likes structure and stability but loathes planning.
Is there such thing?
Writing helps, so does exercise and photography. Make sure I keep up with it.
Til then,
Cori
Chicago
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